آفتاب نیا ... تو صورت درسا
My little Hazelnut,
I love your life right now. I love the pure happiness in your eyes and your giggles. I love that the length of your sadness is too short to finish a cry.
Yesterday sitting in the carseat, sunlight was over your face. You sure don't like the sun in your eyes. Moving your face, you started saying: "Aftaab naya ... tu ... surate Dorsa" and you repeated that a few times. I got so happy deep down. Something melted in my heart. I admit I have been encouraging you to ask whatever you want. I have told you not to cry, ask and if possible mommy would do it for you and if not possible your cry would not change anything. I love the fact that you think you can rule the earth and the sky right now. Soon you will know that you can just ask, not rule anything, and many many things are just out of your control. That's the way life is. I hope you grow so calm and wise to accept that. I am praying from the bottom of my heart that you do not have to see it the hard way.
I am working on myself to accept it. To go with life the way it is. To ask God and let him decide and be truly calm and satisfied of what he decides.
For now, just run, jump and laugh as much as you can ....
